Finally i realize that i'm nothing with out you I was wrong , forgive me Now you wouldn't even call me , the distance that's already between us , The space between us is wider and further than strangers Thinking of your words once and again , they were lies and excuses One person and one love was everything i was used to I should erase you when this night goes by It must be like that when i think of you that left me You don't know anything but my heart hurts If you smile a little, i feel good I prayed every night hoping that this day wouldn't come And i have the habit of talking to you on my own I don't even know how it ended up like this I thought i wouldn't be able to live even one day without you You don't answer anything when i cry out "I miss you" I worried and anxious because i can't approach you or talk to you Don't look back and leave , don't look for me again and live Because i don't regret loving you , take only the good memories Somehow i'll bear it , somehow i'll resist it You should be happy even if we are like this , day by day i become dull Even if we bumped into each other You act as if you don't even know me and follow your way I never had the smallest regret , please do well even if i'm gone I hope when you leave me your heart feels relieved , Forget me and live I hate pain , what do i do with my feelings that have grown deep Oh since the day you left me , i can't do anything at all Everything stopped , Everything ended , my everything is fading Even if i close my eyes ,in my memories your figure is blurry Because of you i can't do anything Everyday i'm struggling in a sea hit by waves of yearning I can't forget you My breathing is blocking , my heart hurts as i think of you Are you happy that you left me If its like this , i hope you will forget me I hate this, the days without you are long Without you i cannot show a smile I miss you but i can't see you when it all ends A loner left behind, on my own Please leave me and forget me slowly, so that i can be in pain ~~~~ I'm a Loner~~~~
Sunday, March 7, 2010
yesterday went to ECP and took pics, still have some more but won't show cos of some imperfects ^_^ want to knw what happen go to kok heng blog and see.... lazy type all =D finally post ^_^
p.s I MISS MY EX-WIFE ♥
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Yo ... sry long time no post .. M.I.A for very long .. 'busy" well just now went to watch "2012" quit a nice movie.. went n watch with roy,seetho,edmund,jia liang,kai jie, hein zaw, zhi jun n gang wee. me, roy n seetho meet together den meet the rest add j.p see the 5.45 show cos the others all fully booked, meet them around 4.15 like that, bought the ticket den nothing to do , we all took 240 from boon lay n took 1 whole round until j.p cos we want to waste time... reach j.p at around 5.40 den walk to golden village, bought drinks n snack , we were just in time for the movie, walked into the cinema and is was full of people ,we were the last to go into the cinema.... the movie lasted for 2hrs n 30min, the longest movie i have ever seen in a cinema after the show ended , my bladder was dam full , wanted to go to the toilet a.s.a.p went to the closet toilet but it was full of people den me n kai jie ran to another toilet n pee, after that we felt happy n excited cos all of the urine was gone, after that the rest went home , left me,seetho,roy n zhi jun, we went to 209 n play basket ball until around 11+ den went home n suddenly was free to post ^_^
Monday, October 12, 2009
WHOOOOzzzz....TOday was my B'day...13th b'day....... Also is was the last End Of Year Exam paper history.. Was so happy yesterday, school ended at 9.30a.m, left school at around 9.45 after that went to mac n eat with my friends.... after that went home and changed... wanted to go swimming at Jurong east swimming complex but i was closed... alot of ppl wanted to swim...zomg....den went to eat at the kopitiam near jurong east swimming complex .... me edmund and Kai jie ate two plates of chicken cos is was so nice n we were so hungry, after that went color court n play basket ball untill 6.30..... i invited ze hau, edmund and kaijie to eat at Swensens..... we ate n den the b'day cake arrived ..... i told my family to sing softly but they sang so loud!... ps sia when they were singing i put my head on the table n cover my face.. after that we ate the ice-cream cake.. its was delicious i saw the bill its was $172.90 without the price of the cake.. with the price of the cake it would be $200+... LOL....after that went so kai jie house to watch shutter.. the thailand version... quite scary....around 9.30 kai jie mom sent me edmund n ze hau back home..... well i haven't received any presents yet..... went home empty handed...............
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Yo Supp ps long time no post......."Busy" Well Yesterday was AWSOME went back 2 BLGPS Saw Alot of old faces that i've never seen in a VERY long time Went 2 BLGPS around 1130 cos Rauf, Ziana, n Eyqyn went 2 my house .... den went to BLGPS... not alot of ppl where there we could only go in at 1.30 but the guard let us in at around 1.45 n only a teacher could bring us in..but luckily Mdm Nortlita went n brought the 6/4'o8 pupils in when it started 2 rain went in and saw that the school have change abit but it looked the same chit-chat with mdm norlita abit den they say 2.30 must go out... did not have time 2 walk around the school..... but i had alot of fun talking my old friends!!! Hope next year would be better..^_^
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
We Won the inter-class sec 1 soccer YEAHHH we fought against 1e3 1st... score 3-0..we won den fought against in semi-finals 1T2.. (lucky hockey boys came back and help us.... Fateh,Aidil n Iszuan ^_^) den took penalty Fateh saved a few balls and den scored.....We won (again) Den its the Finals we ... 1N2 vs 1E2... They were quite good.... but in the end... score 2-0... WE Woooon WHOOOOO... THE CHAMPIONSSSSSS 1N2!!!!!! after that match every 1 was silent like we lost but its bcos every 1 was tired or maybe some other reason... den after getting the trophy we all went home..... Our team was Awsome!!!! Yea!! YEa We RockZZZZZZ 1N2!!!! ALL FOR 1 , 1 FOR ALL!!!!!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Whooo.. finally got back from sec1 camp .... it was hell but also quite fun 1st day got into groups n went 2 rock climbing it was fun i got 2 the top ... so did a few people but most of the people in my group all went 3/4 of the wall den went back down 2nd day went kayaking .... quite fun cos kayak in the sea at pasir ris and it was a 2 sitter kayak we need 2 partner a girl but there more boy den girls in each kayak was a boy n girl but i was lucky i kayak with edmund quite fun n tiring after that went back 2 camp had a campfire quite fun n funny after that ate dinner n went 2 sleep 3rd day woke up eat breakfast ..did some cheers n area cleaning after that the bus arrive n went back 2 JWSS the bus stop out side of school den i went 2 J.P 2 buy mac den went home. Home Sweet Home.....
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
Muhaha...I'm Back from teh DEAD... not really just lazy post.. welll tod@y make new ez-link card change 2 the blue 1 instead of the orange 1 the new 1 my fast wah dam funny sia even Mr khan say he didn't reconise me sia cos my spec degree VERY HIGH so got flash so take out my spec den take n the WORST thing is that the pic is taken in PRIMARY school secondary school ez-link card but primary school photo...LAME!!SIA! well my card sapose 2 hav $3.96 den the ppl help me top up $1 lol den got $4.96 hehe so good but they still minus the same amount only 44 cent hehe!! well i'll try 2 update ASAP cos M.Y.E(mid year exams) just a few day later so wish me LUCK..... peace out!
Friday, April 3, 2009
Ohhhhhh yeah today was promotion day for sec 1 ncc cadets so brought my full uniform 2 school after school went 2 the toilet n change with naresh n arif den wait till 1.55 pm den fall in took the bus 2 westspring secondary the school dam big n got lift also dam good school....the canteen was like just beside the carpark we went into a room n saw other school at the room 2 n i saw rauf there in the room we saw some videos n free-style drill it was cool... the ceromonywas quite short n went back 2 school about 4+ but now we are private n private no rank so its ok..... well it was fun.....
Monday, March 30, 2009
Well yesterday,yesterday was roy birthday so me roy n yuan ming go sentosa n celebrate... we went there played the "Luge" dam fun we bought the HOT deal thats buy 2 get 1 free...means buy 2 rides get 1 free n only 4 $18.00 so cheap so bought it den played the "Luge" 3 times n went on the Skyride 3 times while on the sky ride yuan ming go throw his helmet from the ride den taiko kena the drain dam funny after that went 2 the beach n played we burried yuan ming in the sand dam funny after that we walk her walk there 2 find the toilet den finaly found the toilet after we bath we went 2 take the shutter bus from sentosa 2 harbour front dam long cos got traffic jam den me roy n yuan ming sit behind the bus after that got 2 sailors come approach us den he ask yuan ming name he say his name was jeffred n i said mine was david lol they believe lol den took like almost 1 hour 2 reach harbour front after that we took the train 2 lakeside n went 2 roy house 2 eat cake we put the cake on each others face LOL dam funny ^_^
Monday, March 23, 2009
WAHH dam angry i did the ace learning fast 2min52seconds den kena scolding dam i just did is fast but atleast i pass den need 2 do CWO go 2 the carpark n sweep dam tired after that went hm my points 100 den minus 4 demerit points den now 96 point dam i wanted 2 keep 100 points all the way change sitting arrange in class walao no need sia i sia right at the back cannot see anything n cannot hear how study sia ..... just need 2 wait till trem3 den can change hope it comes fast......
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Went 2 roy house 2 meet den took 178 2 Jurong East Libry yesterday Mr. Fadir Birthday so i said happ belated birthday Mr Fadhir we cannot book the disscusion room cos ppl alrdy book so we study at the cafe we play abit also after that we went 2 cut the cake at the J.E entertament center outside very funny we sang the happy birthday song n mr.Fadhir blush den he cut the cake yueling go throw a piece at Mr. Fadhir while she did that i go put the cream at his face Dam funny he did't notice it hehehe den the cake was quite nice i took a strawberry n a few piece of the chocolate i also ate a piece of the cake no body want eat so i eat den got like 3/4 of the cake left den we say we give Mr. Fadhir we go take the cake cos his birthday what... after that took 178 n go hm......^_^
Monday, March 16, 2009
Sup yesterday just came back frm ncc annual camp at JWSS 3day-2nite.. very very very tireing 1st day was ok early morning do P.T den kena 60 pumping by ma'm cos we nvr greet as a cours ever 1 did pumping acept for sirs n ma'm den did drills for the whole day....at nite got night walk we blind-fold our self n walk around the school at nite not scary cos got our senior follow us den sleep in a tent outside of the hall. second day.... did P.T again den morning run out side school came back n eat breakfast did some drills den eat lunch after that we went 2 play spider web DAM FUN if we kena the string our senior will paint our face with camo cream n got some 1 with colgate 1st i went through the web 3/4 finish den i nvr kena so i proposely touch the string den i step the string very unlucky my whole face got creaM n colgate very funny every 1 kena face paint no 1 went out of the web with a clean face very hard 2 wash of the cream very HARD took me half an hour 2 wash off all the cream den at nite eat dinner after dinner got cadets night very funny one of our adviser came back he was very funny we laugh alot after that went 2 eat supper den sleep in then class room 3E5 very cold i every 5 min keep waking up den 1 of the senior woke us up went 2 bath did P.T again again den eat breakfast den wore full uniform very1 look cool in the uniform den got parade den went back hm ... over all the camp was quite fun went back hm n slept the whole day...
p.s sry very long nvr post com spoil hehehe
Sunday, March 8, 2009
WEll tomorrow going ncc camp FEAST so tuesday den come back n monday n tuesday no school!! yES well now packing for tomorrow well staying there for only 2day 1 night i think
Friday, March 6, 2009
1N2 Class photo 2009!!
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Well yesterday went 2 libry n meet Mr Khan at discussion room 1 talk-talk... had some laughs den mr Fadhil come in slowly the room no more space den 12+ got break den only 15 mins i so hungry cos nvr eat breakfast den after going libry i faster go eat den go hm.........
Saturday, February 21, 2009
welll went 2 the libry n meet Mr khan den saw Mr fadhil LOL..so do hw ... after that me,roy,edmund n geni went 2 I.M.M we go eat 1st cos every 1 hungry me edmund n roy eat hokkien mee so much den edmund make me laugh until almost vomit den slack...play catching...... den saw yue ling.....Bitch after that walk-walk.... den roy treat ice-cream we eat will walking 2 the bus every 1 took the same bus n went hm..... well wanted 2 play badminton den geni cannot so me n roy walk edmund n geni hm they live near each other.... den me n roy walk hm so tired *sigh* not bad lah 2day quite fun ^_^ :D
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Love is in the Air the day that only comes ONCE a year well heres what i did on valentines day...
wake up...bath go JP n meet yuan ming eat MC donald after that take MRT 2 jurong east at there go J.E libaray 2 meet Mr.Khan at Libaray saw... Arif,Afiqah,Aidil,Anisa,Cindy,Iszuan,Naresh,Sheryl,suhermanto n Vinodh we nvr study..wel do little bit hw only den see avator at arif HP den 1+ m, iszuan,aidil,manto n yuan ming(yuan ming also follow) go eat MC donald at I.M.M after that me n yuan ming go jp the rest went back hm at jp we saw until "YO" Yi lin,shirley n junior "YO"(Yi lin small sister) after that me n yuan ming go see "The Wedding Game" not bad quite funny also after that saw JJ lin(i also dunno who) at jp the stage so many people sia dne i STUCK!! in the crowd for like 10 mins so pack until cannot move.... den i push my way out den i was like Thank God finaly out of that spot den went 2 arcade 2 play den walk walk abit den go hm.... well not really boring anyway
Friday, February 13, 2009
THE unluckyest day of the year ..... yea today i very unlucky well not very unlucky durning school normal nth happen den until after school well nth much 2..... den after NCC today take the bus press the bell... den got jam... i pressed the bell be4 the jam den reach the bus stop the back door of the bus nvr open den i was shocked!! stupid bus driver nvr open the door so the next stop i go down n walk hm dam unlucky.....
Monday, February 9, 2009
Arhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I BURNED MY HAND!!!!!!!! dam .... my whole left hand kena burned so pain my hand dam RED!!! dam soup so hot utill burn my hand so badluck........ nvm will heal very(maybe)soon nvr going 2 drink soup every again dangerous sosososo careless....
Friday, February 6, 2009
Not much rlly.. just like normal training 1st we confirm ur uniform size den the "Staff" bring us 2 do some exercise after that the we play a game called "Blow Wind Blow" fun game played at the hockey pitch den started 2 rain V.V so went into the music terrence n played "Blow Wind Blow" dam fun n funny sia after that went 2 class n took back n went hm......
Thursday, February 5, 2009
SOoooooo bad luck.. durning science last period i broke a test-tube den must pay 50 cent 2 the teacher so cheap LOL lucky got 50 cent in my wallet after that went 2 JP with suhermanto,amirah n sheila went 2 MAC n eat ......... den went 2 libry go in den i go hm left manto n amirah n amirah friend(dunno who) sheila bastard make me follow her 2 her block downstairs..... den no bus 2 take so i walk hm.. came bck so tired put down bag n went 2 shower......... boring day anyway........
psps nvr post for long time cos always come hm late from school got something after school 1......
Friday, January 30, 2009
Soooo..... tired... 1st the "Sir" talks about the Ncc History den we try the uniform...Shirt...pants..boots n cap well after that we talked den we talk the Sirs say today no need go running or anything just talking about the cca DEN! 1 dumbass no brain son of the shit ask 2 go do running den the Sir say go do walao dam hard need do pumping(pumping=pushup n dam hard) running here n there... after that all the uniform groups go 2 the parade square n sing the national enthem after that go back... so tired... arhh!!!!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
So good i go into NCC I put as 1st choice den kena so good Sooooooooooooooo...... good got my best friend hehehhe i can nvr tell..!!
Friday, January 2, 2009
1st day of school was ok Jwss is not bad also but only the uniform need tuck-in met my math teacher MR Khan n my english miss siti the rest need 2 find out on monday well i counted over 40+ ex-BLGPS went 2 JWSS thats awsome!! atleast can still see some old faces
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
2008 gone in a flash .. had alot of fun in 2008 manythings i thought i nvr overcome but i did ^^ 2008 the GREATEST year of my life!! i had a lot of fun i had alot of 1st times like going on the singapore flyer n other stuff went 2 countdown at Boon lay since i had now where 2 go saw alot of friends n had alot of fun i spent my last seconds of 2008 at a burger stall dam waited for the burger so long until i dunno alrdy 2009 then i heard the fireworks n said: OMG so fast 2009 dam.... i ask for my burger in 2008 n got it in 2009 hehe after the fireworsk n every 1 start walk back home a group of bangalahs started whistleing like retards n make a hell of noise dam noisy ..... i HOPE 2009 will be a fun year
Monday, December 15, 2008
001. Real name → MD Jaisani 002. Nickname(s)→ Jai 003. Status →Single! 004. Zodiac sign → Libra 005. Male or female → Male.. 006. Elementary → PAP.. 007. Middle School → BLGPS . 008. High School → Jurong west sec school 010. Hair color → Black n Little brown 011. Long or short → Short hair... 012. Loud or Quiet → 50% loud, 50% Quiet 013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans. 014. Phone or Camera →Camera n must have 20+ megapixles 015. Health freak → nope ... 016. Drink or Smoke? → None i don't want 2 be Dead at a young Age 017. Do you have a crush on someone? → no... 018. Eat or Drink →Drink.. 019. Piercings → NVR In my LIFE 020. Tattoos → NVR IN MY LIFE
FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → NVR HAD .. 024. First best friend →Hmmmm dunno... 025. First award →3rd place lower pri sports 03 026. First crush → ....... 027. First pet → A small bird 028. First big vacation → Went on a Plane 2 somewhere in Asia 030. First big birthday →hmm nevr had.
CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → nothing.. 050. Drinking →Pepsi 052. I’m about to → Play Dota AT Garena 053. Listening to → nothing.. 054. Plans for today → Own ppl at Dota 055. Waiting for →something real cool 2 happen!
YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → Sure 059. Want to get married? anything 060. Careers in mind → Hmmm not sure ..
WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
068. Lips or eyes →Eyes 070. Shorter or taller? → Tall.. 072. Romantic or spontaneous → Both.. 073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Both.. 074. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive 075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship...... 077. Trouble maker or hesitant → Hesitant .....
HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → nvr 081. Ran away from home →no planning 2 082. Hold a gun/knife for self defense →Every day in skool 083. Killed somebody →OF Cos (In games i killed alot.. HEHE) 084. Broken someone’s heart →Duno 085. Been arrested →Nvr 087. Cried when someone died →Nvr
DO YOU BELIEVE:
089. Yourself → offen 090. Miracles → Sure 091. Love at first sight → hmm 50-50 092. Heaven → Of Couse 093. Santa Claus → not really 094. Sex on the first date →......not sure^ 095. Kiss on the first date →Yeah
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now →no 098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → no 099. Do you believe in God → Of Coz 100. Post as 100 truths and tag → everyone ...
Thursday, November 20, 2008
20th november the happiest day of my life!!!!! when i saw that 100% passes for merged stream i was Fucking happy n start hitting ppl near me!!! only get 169 eng-B mt-C science-B maths-D well atleast pass n got sec 1 .. i'm going 2 miss all of my frenz at BLGPS ..i had a great time so sad it had 2 end...... 6/4!!! ROCKZ!!!!!!!!!We Will Own U Noobs!!!!